The first week was absolute bliss, y’all. My ENTP husband was working from home, which entailed checking his email 3 times a day and playing video games for hours. I binge-watched Netflix, baked all the things, and cleaned all the things. We got Disney+ and I was reminiscing on all my favorite movies, lighting my favorite candles to make the house smell amazing, and doing yoga every morning.
It’s week 5… and all that has completely turned upside down. I’m definitely an introvert, but I am hurting for human interaction. I even miss being able to go to a coffee shop and sip my vanilla latte near other people – not necessarily interacting, but just being in the same room and enjoying the space. I’m tired of TV and movies… something I never thought would EVER happen to me. I feel unproductive, lazy, and kinda trapped. I can only go on so many walks around my neighborhood before I even get bored with that. Much like most INFJs, I love my alone time…. but I am missing people right about now.
I think what makes matters worse in my case is that I was one test away from gaining my teaching credential. My plan was to substitute teach for the rest of the semester (starting in March), then apply/interview for jobs all summer. My life has come to an abrupt halt. And I know it could most definitely be worse. I’m thankful to have a husband whose job was not affected by COVID-19, in fact, I’ve gotten to spend a lot of quality time with him these past several weeks. But I’m feeling very…. worthless at the moment. I was on my way to pursuing my passion for teaching, and now I’m just waiting it out and there is nothing I can do to help the situation right now.
I wondered if there were any other INFJs out there who feel the same way? I hate to be whining about my situation when it’s really not that bad, but I can’t help but feel what I feel. I have a deep desire to make a difference in the world and I definitely want to help my little family by bringing in some income. Not being able to do either of those things has got me a little down. My other problem is that I hate asking friends to FaceTime or call because I feel like I’m bothering them. Which I know is probably silly. They may need someone to talk to just as much as I do.
Right now, all I can do is wait and try to work on myself in the process. I’ve taken up meditation, trying new recipes for dinner, and my husband and I built a pergola in our backyard (well, he built it and I handed him tools). For all my fellow INFJs – or any other type – out there who are feeling the same way, hang in there. You’re not alone. Try to find small projects around the house that make you feel productive, pick up a hobby that you always wanted to try, schedule a FaceTime date with a friend…. I even know someone who takes a karaoke machine out in their driveway every weekend to sing to his neighbors. I’d never be brave enough to do that, but if that’s your thing, go for it! I know it’s difficult and even with all the projects and efforts to keep busy, it can still get to you. But don’t lose hope, and don’t let this pandemic get you down. We are all in this together, even if we are separated right now.